Countdown thoughts till my Oct 29 2009 surgery where I will be disemboweled to "cure" me of Crohn's/Colitis. My large intestine will be removed.
Memories can be short lived. My hope is that this blog will be a useful tool after surgery, to help me and others remember how challenging things were prior to surgery. To help us appreciate having a "second chance" and keep things in perspective despite a changed body image and new challenges.
Friday, September 25, 2009
Stop Crying!
Sometimes when I think about the predicament of it all, I find myself spontaneously beginning to cry. And then like preordained clockwork my wife shows up and asks me why my chest is palpitating and my face is crunched up and why I am making weird crying like noises. The mechanical movements of crying are quickly isolated and identified for me. And then I laugh at how annoying the timing is and why I can't enjoy this release. Crying turns to laughing. The crying is now done with for another month, till another moment of self pity. The catharsis will have to wait another month or perhaps until she's out of the house helping others store their pent up angst. This girl could put Kleenex out of business.
A good cry can be a great thing. I feel your pain there is nothing more frustrating that an interrupted cry. It's like waiting for that sneeze that is building up but than goes away as soon as someone says "bless you" too soon.
ReplyDeleteOn the other hand, this wife of yours sounds caring and lovely.
EGB